I waste my time on what-ifs.
Sorry I couldnt have dinner with you yesterday. Kind of. I’m glad I was out of town actually. You want me on your terms and thats not the kind of girl I am. If you were willing to contribute anything real I would be willing to work with you.
Part of me is glad that we are passed all the relationship nonsense. It bothers me how superficial you can be. Don’t you know its much more beneficial to be transparent? Less lies to keep up with and you dont have to put up such a front all the time. Your efforts of trying to be mysterious only make you seem distant and a it hard-hearted.
We texted til 1:30 ish AM last night. Consistently. That was until I asked the only question that held any meaning. I dont even know what to say. Your silence speaks volumes and I really don’t know what to tell you either way you could’ve answered.
I can’t even joke with people anymore. Everyone keeps trying to start stuff and act like im instigating. maybe people need to chill out and stop taking offense to everything that is just humor.
I hate it when people make out as if you’re the bad one because you gave up on them, maybe if you hadn’t of treated me like shit/gave me something to stick around for, you’d still have me. You did this to yourself.